i had a bad day today. i feel marginalized. a woman called and kept asking me all these questions about extractions and implants and when i didn't know the answer, got an attitude with me. i told her to hold please, told tina i couldn't deal with the woman, and went into the bathroom and cried. the past couple of days have been like that. i feel...lost. i keep having these crazy dreams. my subconscious is trying to tell me something, but i'll only listen and watch in my sleep. during the day i'm too consumed with where i am. i have been telling myself that i need to "transcend my space", meaning, not notice the physical things around me as much as i notice the spiritual aspect of everything. God is in and around and under and above and through, and i am trying to remember all the promises God has made me. right now i feel sick, and i feel tired, but seriously i have to be thankful. so three things i am thankful for today:
1. the sunshine. it was so cold in the office today and when i came outside, it was like being hugged.
2. music. certain songs have cheered me up today, namely "paradise" by coldplay and "free my mind" by katie herzig.
3. my husband making dinner. he let me sit on the couch with lucy while he cooked the orange chicken and rice. yum.
so even though it was a bad day, and i don't have a lot of confidence in tomorrow being much better, i know that i can transcend anything. my God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power and love and a SOUND MIND. amen.
it could be paradise.
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