i'm the queen of nothing, i'm the king of the world

i have five minutes to blog. is that enough time? probably. i am looking at houses. it might really happen. i might really have a home. in mt. juliet. it's so pretty there. it's a little closer to my parents. it's close to easter seals camp, where i would go and stand by the lake and watch the sunset, wondering if he was out there. wondering if my future was in that sunset, or in the sunrise. of course they're in both. we're leaving and arriving all the time. i want to leave where i am so badly right now, but i might look back and say, ah, those were the good ol days. when everything was simple. all i know is that i'm running out of time, all the time. i need to embrace where i am, and save money to buy the ticket out. the ticket to whatever is next. what will you do with your one wild and precious life?